Wednesday, June 28, 2006
Driving today rocksss. =D
Haha I felt like I owned the road and I was cruising in my very own car! Oh man, if only I'd be able to feel like that on my test day eh. HOW GOOD WOULD THAT BE! Because I drive best when I'm relaxed. I screw up when I'm kancheong lar. Like the first few minutes of the lesson today. 2 weeks never drive, oh my goodness, instructor had to keep stepping on the brakes for me HAHA =X But all was good! =D
Met my pretty after lesson because she got the same session as meeeeee. WELL DONE BABY! Haha sorry eh, damn high. Apparently both of us were pretty satisfied with our lessons today. WELL DONE WELL DONE! And we headed to Causeway Point for breakfast! HEE. We bumped into classmate in the train and got her to join us! And who eats Sausage McMuffin with mayo? EEKS! =X Sorry lur but it's weird k. She was supposed to walk me to school but no no no she didn't because I had a friend with me so yeah =( POUTS LAR! How can it be the same? OH WELL...
SO FYP..hais. Nothing to say. Another redundant week. Hope tomorrow's meeting with Khee Wei will be fruitful. Sheesh.
AND IM HUNGRY although I just had dinner. And I'm so damn excited for myself because I'm going to get my allowance, VERY SOON! And my pay as well! I can finally repay my debts, or rather, debt, and start booking more driving sessions!!
Okie, I'm going to shower =X And will pack my bag, and head to bed.
Take care people.
10:58 PM
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Tuesday, June 27, 2006
My mind's made up. Now it's up to you to believe me and up to me on how I'm going to assure you and it ain't going to be easy considering the factors around me isn't going to help me very much. Sighs. =(
I'm having a stupid headache and it have been going on and off for days. Oh wait, have I already complained about this on my previous entry? Haha.
Training yesterday was a killer considering I haven't had proper training for 4536798045 years. My goodness but it was fun because I felt good yesterday! =D After training, dead tired, accompanied the Girl to SSDC to book her driving! A lot of stupid things happened. How she went around asking people what '我爱你' (please change your browser encoding to 'UNICODE UTF-8' to view chinese words!) meant in English. OH MAN. Haha. But that's another story and I'll tell it to you if I love you! And to those who heard the story: HEHE. Funny lar! Then we just headed home. All was good (= I like!
Then woke up so frigging early today. Like 530am, 545am around there lar and I couldn't get back to sleep so I thought maybe for once I'd just head to school early! And I did! Classmate had to rush to Yishun MRT for me and I'm happy! Haha we then had a good breakfast at Macs and a good satisfying walk to school then after, din we? =D The day was taking it's toll on me when afternoon came and my energy level almost hit rock bottom but I managed to survive and here I am. Was complaining to Classmate how 'manjer' I am nowadays. I just need all the love and attention but no one is willing to entertain me...Girlfriend please do something about this situation! It'll take awhile for me to get out of this 'phase' that I'm going through so I want to warn all people who are close to me. Haha. Please give me all the love and attention that I seek. I'm tired of being the one entertaining.
Nicky's a good girl today because her fag supply is dead dry and not a single stick attempted to kill her today. Well done. Keep it up Nicky! This is why I always whine, 29th June, COME NOW PLEASE! I'm damn broke LUR.
Alright alright. It's TV time! I'm 18 minutes late for my 7pm chinese show because of this long long entry.
Please tag peopleeeee. I miss all the nice nice tags. =D
HAHA. Love you all plenty!
-Nicky!
7:22 PM
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Sunday, June 25, 2006
you were there
all these while,
i was just too blind to see.
Friendly today. It was OK considering we haven't touched the stick in like a month or so? Yeaps. =) Kinda enjoyed myself also. HEE.
AND I finally got to know the Year 1s lar. I was like some mad high woman at the bus stop and in the bus today learning their names and just being crazy. They all have funny names but they're a cute bunch! I LIKE! =D We went to Far East to makan. That Nana Thai Restaurant sucks lur. We should have eaten at Cahayaaaa. Blurgh. All 15 of us! Then we walked to Taka to get Duck's stuff. And Heeren-ed after that. Well done. All was exhausted and left town bout 6pm. Yay. It was a good day after all =) Train-ed home with Brenda, Linie and Joreen. HEH. We all fell aslp after chitchatting damn animatedly, all tired lurrr.
That's today.
Let's recap yesterday's events!
Had lunchie over at Zam Zam.
Joey Meiwei Sher Nicky Nad Jas Jar Fish Yati Seri.
Solely seniors =) Bugis-ed and then slacked at Swensens where Pang treat all of us to ICE CREAM!! =D THANK YOU!! Yums lar. We just sat and talk and yeah that's about it la har. Then we just headed down to town to walk walk walk. Met Classmate after that and EH got for Girlfriend her perfume from Body Shop because Classmate's friend was working and yeap! =D Yay, she's happy, so am I. Well done. Then me and Classmate headed down to Bianca's place and heee we were photographers for the event. Actually she did more of the shooting than I did so ya~ Let her lar. Haha. We had fun, didn't we? Hee =) What's with the party bag and all. Haha.
Alright then. I miss school, suddenly. I'm hungry. I've been pigging out so much that it scares me! IM HUNGRY IM HUNGRY! Feed me pls! =(
Off to bed for me!
BYE!
She fills my heart with very special things
With angels' songs, with wild imaginings
She fills my soul with so much love
That anywhere I go, I'm never lonely
With her along, who could be lonely
I reach for her hand, it's always there...
How long does it last?
Can love be measured by the hours in a day?
I have no answers now, but this much I can say
I'm going to need her till the stars all burn away
And she'll be there.
(=
10:56 PM
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Wednesday, June 21, 2006
I've lost all faith and confidence. I hate this =(
I hate thinking too much on long bus rides home.
I need retail therapy.
29th, please come, fast!
I'd love a cactus plant.
A pretty and colourful one.
Then I can take care of it because it's easy to take care of and I won't kill it so fast. =X
I want plants, and more fishes.
And I need sleep, plenty.
It's 9:34pm. I'll go to sleep, NOW.
Goodnight.
9:37 PM
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Tuesday, June 20, 2006
Who am I to think so highly of myself eh?
And just when I thought everything was going the way I wanted it to, it came crashing down on me. What's with me and bad luck? What did I do to deserve all this? Well, maybe not everything is bad but the things or relationships I treasure the most always make a turn into the wrong lane and that sucks, BIG TIME.
Maybe it's just me.
I'm feeling freaking depressed!
11:45 PM
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I love doing closing! No no, let me clarify that. I love working till closing because I have all the fun people with me and we'll have so much fun despite the freaking workload =D Hehe. And cabbing back after that with them is so fun too. Where we'll all wait for cabs. FUN LAR. But today will be the last on a weekday, I hope, because I have school the next day!
...It has finally ended.
School sucked like big time lar. But it wasn't all bad la eh (= Tomorrow's another day. Sighs. 9 weeks, let me just breeze through it. )= Pray that everything will be okay because this tension is getting so bad. And, my bad, I'll take responsibility for this shit I'm causing. For being too sensitive.
...And I'm broken.
It's almost 1:30am. And I'm not the least bit sleepy. Growls. I have to wake up at 6am later. AND GUESS WHAT, I managed to wake up today, all by myself, at 6am. HEE (= Well done Nicky. Was pretty excited for school you see. HEEE. I love walking slowly to the bus stop and not like rushing and perspiring in hope of not missing the bus! (= Hope it'll be the same for later and the 9 weeks to come.
...I miss you Girl.
I'm craving for pasta! Shall make the girls eat that with me tomorrow when I have dinner with them =D Alright JTAP and NCY? HEEE =D
But it's okay,
And I just want more laksa, peanut butter toast, fried beehoon, fish ball noodles and nasi lemak please!! HUNGRY. A big hungry pms-er.
I'm starting to get used to you not being here.
And this sucks, losing my temper. I don't know if I should go on Saturday now, to Bianca's party that is. Promised my Aunty to take pictures for her already though. SIGHS. And I've found the perfect excuse for my Mum already to miss it but she keep saying I can go later. BLURGH. How eh like that?
Be happy for me, I'm moving on...
Whatever lurrrrr. And one more thing, I forgot to announce this!!
On 13th June 2006, I sat for my Final Theory test and eh, I PASSED LAR!! =D
Well doneeeeeee =D
Baby's taking hers tomorrow. WHEEEE. If I can pass, anyone can lor.
So yeah, GO GIRL! =D
Basic Theory and Final Theory all passed at first attempt. HEE. Hope the same goes for my TP as well... HEE =D
I'm going off now, not to sleep, just going to find something else to do since I'm running out of things to say. Might go pack my bag and get ready what I'm going to wear all. HOHO.
Good night Loves (=
1:29 AM
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Monday, June 19, 2006
Yay it's so late and I'm not in bed yet. Just want to be how crazy lar. Tomorrow's the first day of school after da 2 weeks break and I'm feeling bittersweet about it. I'm so looking forward to it because I'm going to see everyone again but thinking about class, my team and my fac, ARGH. Mad Nicky.
Work today, 3-11. Love it =D Think I'm loving work more and more and it's the money that keeps me going and u know if you work 60 hours or more in a month, you'll get 30bucks voucher and 30bucks in cash! AND THIS MONTH, I clocked 53.5 hours lar. FUCK SIA. Short of what, 6.5 hours. GROWLS! This suckkkks because I could clock 6.5 hours in a day but it's too late because they count pay from 19th June onwards. BLURGH! Means I have to start all over again next month. Dammmiitttt.
I hope EA gives good money for the education awards this year. Really need that wad of cash for my practical lessons. Am so lagging behind. about 10 or more lessons to go before I can book my TP! Growls. Long way more! At least 3 more months. BLURGH.
Alright alright 'nuff said. Got to go pack my bag for school tomorrow and off to bed for me. I'm left with just 5 hours to sleep. Goodness.
(=
Tata.
1:23 AM
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Saturday, June 17, 2006
(= My Saturday.
11:08 PM
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I Still Hate YOU
And what I've assumed about my dream in the last entry was right =)
To dream that you are crying, signifies a release of negative emotions that is more likely caused by some waking situation rather than the events of the dream itself. Your dream is a way to regain some emotional balance and a way to safely let out your fears and frustrations. In our daily lives, we tend to ignore, deny, or repress our feelings. But in our dream state, our defense mechanisms are no longer on guard and thus allow for the release of such emotions.
Haha I just wanna cry more in my sleep. It makes me feel so much better although it leaves me with a headache after that!
Work till 12 just now. Growls. Time passed so damn slow! I was so restless I almost cried lar. Raquel was like panicking already~ Haha =X
Okie. I can't wait for later ;)
See you all. TATA!
ps. Goodness, just realised hols is coming to an end =(
12:47 AM
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Friday, June 16, 2006
I'm having a very terrible headache because I just sobbed so badly in my sleep till I woke up with my eyes wet and swollen.
I guess dreams are replacement for when you can't do stuff in real life, everything happens when your eyes are closed.
And it felt so good to cry. I just didn't stop. 3 times I cried and all 3 times it was as if someone dear to me left this world. It was that crazy.
=( This sucks because I have work and a headache and pair of swollen eyes won't do me good.
Fuck it lar.
4:28 PM
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HA. Knn..ccb...EVERYTHING.
The hate in me is so difficult to comprehend.
Feel like just fucking whack you right there and then.
All this while you've been putting up a fake front! You've been lying and I was blind enough to believe. Well in the first place I was already blind enough to have actually laid eyes on you! And all that I've tried to build up is just going down the drain! I hate you I really do and nothing you say or do will be able to save this fucking friendship! GO TO HELL!
ARGHHHHHHHS! I'm gonna be angered to tears I SWEAR! I've had enough. One freaking whole year is enough to kill me slowly and it has already come to a dead end, the ultimate.
THANK YOU FOR NOTHING!
My friends were right...
I'm stupid. Fullstop.
Bye.
11:24 AM
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Wednesday, June 14, 2006
So I'm home, yeah I made it! Haha.
My whole room smells of cherry cigarettes and I'm so dead if my Mum or Dad knows about this new kinda cigs and start rummaging through my bag. GAWD, the smell just want to be how strong lar even though it's in my BAG! HUR. No more, last pack. Ha. =X
Was out with Cheryl and her gang after FYP today. Glad to meet up with her after how long and I never fail to enjoy chatting away with her. Could not do that in front of her friends though, just felt funny but when they all left for the Ladies, found myself talking to her and I like it =) Pardon me, but I'm shy you know. Haha. Let's go out for coffee one day, k?
First time trying Mango Frappe today and it was GOOD! Love it! Have a thing for fruity stuffs nowadays. Heee =)
Funny how my friends has been telling me the same thing over and over again and today all it took was one person to enlighten me and I've made up my mind. Thanks.
=)
Ahh! I forgot to talk about one more thing!
I was a nervous panting arse over at PP presentation today lar my gawd.
Why was I panting? Because I WAS LATE!
There are no freaking cabs at Woodlands k! What the hell. And I woke up late also. Kept thinking my presentation was at 1030am instead of 10am. So I allowed myself to continue sleeping. HUR. Was supposed to leave the house at 830am, only left at 9am lar. Kukunehneh.
Why was I nervous because I did not compose myself properly, I just wanted to start and get it over and done with!
The fac also wah lau eh..Gave me the impression that I was going to fail when she said, "NEXT TIME make sure your presentation is longer and you elaborate on your points more." HUR!!!
BUT GUESS WHAT!
I got the email =) =) =)
AND I PASSED! =) =) =)
Well done Nicky.
Dah lar, I wanna go slp.
Good night people.
12:32 AM
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Tuesday, June 13, 2006
i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you. i hate you.
stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying. stop lying.
aren't you tired..?
blurgh.
We built it up,
To watch it fall.
Like we meant nothing at all.
I gave and gave the best of me,
But couldn't give you what you need.
You walked away,
You stole my life,
Just to find what your looking for.
But no matter how I try,
I can't hate you anymore.
...I can't hate you anymore.
12:21 AM
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Sunday, June 11, 2006
Nick Lachey's Resolution
Nothing but an empty page
Breathing in an open space
Captured by a moment's grace again
There is so much I left behind
Even more that waits in time
Everything so undefined
Standing on the edge of my fear
And I see it clear
Here's my resolution
I'm letting go
All I need to learn is along this road
And I just want to be the best man I can be
Breathe
It's my resolution
Living life without a plan
Finding solace where I stand
Learning how to love again
All I want is something real
That I can feel
Note: All his songs damn emo lar, cannot take it!
9:15 PM
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Saturday, June 10, 2006
Things are getting stupid.
More relationships turning sour, because of me.
I feel bitter and
I WANT OUT!
Don't understand why our ideas keep clashing. Don't understand why I'm even bothered by this! I told you I don't care anymore and I'm dead serious. Stop asking me to think think think! I WON'T!
Something just came to mind:
I detest the word, "Sorry". It's being misused, all the time!
It's a strong word. You don't say you're sorry for no reason! Not pinpointing at anybody here but what's the point of saying sorry. Don't do it in the first place lar if you intend to say you're sorry in the end.
Whatever la if you think I sound contradicting! Geram.
Dah lar, enough of blabbing.
BYE!
12:27 AM
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Wednesday, June 07, 2006
Girl,
I'm sorry.
For my attitude.
For the way I've been treating you.
For the additional shit I make you go through.
Somehow everyone seem better off without me.
Then what the hell am I still doing here?
Fuck all this shit, I'm tired =(
Depressed, tired, everything.
Leave me alone.
5:25 PM
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All the best to RP Adroits. You guys are going to FUCKING start from scratch! Whatever we've built up has gone down the drain! But I guess since he has faith that the year 1s and the remainders are going to bring them victory in IVP, then let it be. I'll just wait and see. Well they got 6 months don't they? WE TOOK FUCKING DAMN 2 YEARS TO GET FREAKING 6TH POSITION! Get the picture anot? TAKE ALL THE LUCK IN THE WORLD MR ANG BUT LEAVE MY GOOD LUCK ALONE, I STILL WANT IT! NO WELL WISHES FROM ME!
In the meantime, I have more important things to attend to. WELL I'm in Year 3 and I'm SO SORRY if no one understands this fucking project we're going through. EH, just realised only Year 3s has it ar. Year 1s and Year 2s are damn free lar liddat. OH so why am I not surprised that they don't freaking understand? Oh ya, even facilitators and advisors and staff of RP don't have to go through this right? Do you guys freaking know what the hell is FYP? Okay, now I'm going to be shot at for not being able to MANAGE MY TIME WELL. But eh c'mon lar my project requires butts to freaking sit in the lab from fucking morning to 5plus lar just to monitor traffic from one PC to another! Oh you don't understand that too? THEN FORGET IT! I'm not a science student who just does research in the freaking library any other day and submit reports you know! HOW I WISH SEH! NO ONE UNDERSTANDS ANYTHING ANYMORE!
Enough la. Even if I didn't get kicked out, I'd have quit when this happened! BUT HEY GUESS WHAT I GOT KICKED OUT!
So now I have more time and breathing space to concentrate on other things! WELL DONE!
FUCK ALL THIS SHIT!
And to whoever's reading this and hates it, just get the fuck out of here! I don't need you at my blog anyways!
12:57 AM
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Monday, June 05, 2006
edit@10:03pm
Damn, I actually fell aslp at 6:58pm okay. Bad, kept tossing and turning, weird dreams and my head was pounding so bad. Fcuk sia. And I was perspiring when I woke up though the fan was like in front of my face. Think really am going to fall sick. Ain't helping that my nose is dripping either. Now I can't freaking sleep back and I have to be up like how early!
The word:
Hate.
So strong. But oh well.
I'm talking in circles, I don't understand myself either.
_____
Have to be up by 0730 hours tomorrow for 2nd day of filming. My gawd. One day is enough to kill. Tired. Exhausted, whatever la eh. Lucky shooting locations all nearby if not. Omgawd.
And,
things won't be the same anymore.
It just feels weird lar.
Bye.
6:01 PM
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Friday, June 02, 2006
Headed to school today for FYP, then waited for Jar to end class and we headed down to town to chill! So much for flying off to another country eh woman! =X Heeees. Had some lunch time special thingy at Fish & Co which is super duper whooper worth it lar! =)
PICS UP!




Then after that we just walked and walked to find my blanket lar! THE GUY BLUFF US K! Town don't have! We search until we both restless like hell! Then headed to one of the cafe places at Cine to slack! (=



Dah lar, tired nie.
AND MY BLANKIE IS THE CUTEST THING EVER!!!!
Those who come here, will get to see it! HEE! =) Happy happy! =)
BYE PEOPLE! (=
7:48 PM
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