Nothing but an empty page
Breathing in an open space
Captured by a moment's grace again
There is so much I left behind
Even more that waits in time
Everything so undefined
Standing on the edge of my fear
And I see it clear
Living life without a plan
Finding solace where I stand
Learning how to love again
All I want is something real
That I can feel
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
Rushed off after training today because I was an hour late for work! Jill was 'lecturing'. And yeaps it was her who took us for training today. (= Some long team talk thingy and you know how much she talks larrrr...And a short game after that. Played like 2 freaking shifts and left! BUT IT WAS GOOD! Thankiew Daddy for waiting for me and sending me to work!
Everyone was so nice at work today arr. HEE. Had fun. Stella made me NICE ice milo because the one I made suck like big timeee we just had to throw it away. Still working on it alright! Usually I don't make my own Milo la! IM A PRINCESS WHAT! LOL! =X Dinner was good too, I guess. And she was just carrying my little ducky with her today ar and fattening the face up. UGLY! Will show you pics when I transfer them to my comp! Yes the little duck was sitting on the cash register today as well... We sound so free ar and ya la the place wasnt even crowded today can. Like ghost town. It was only 15 mins before I ended work that all the customers decided to come. Was keying in orders as fast as I can and helping her make drinks whenever I could. Wah liew who comes to eat and drink at 10:45pm la. =X Ok ok Nicky shhhh.
So nice to have people around me eh at a time like this where being alone will make me go crazy. Scary.
Training tomorrow and late lunchie with Jar. I should go down ar to SSDC and book my first practical! Arghs, checked out the slots...Not much left for Friday, the only day that I have free this week ar. Better go down fast fast and book. Leceh nyer everytime must go down! If my freakin' printer had ink, I could just book online larrr. GROWLS.
And there he is telling me about her when I'm....... Hmms ya. I feel bad...but...ain't my fault...she made it clear already what.
AND.. It's only wise if I let things go. Let the matter rest. Just be professional ___ mates and that's all, nothing more and nothing less either. I can't see clearly what I did wrong and I don't want to blame myself for no reason at all but if that's the way someone wants things...I'll jolly well give it to him/her, that's me I guess.
Jill said today something about being nice..And I'd have to disagree with her. Why be nice seh. I know I'm crazy, sorry, but ya...Being nice is my weakness... I'll become soft-hearted one and it has to stop because it's being used as a weakness ar.
You think I'll be there all the time from now on? You think I'll allow you to use me when you need me and chuck me aside when you're done? Well, hell no, you're wrong man... I ain't going to be the Nicky you all know anymore.
I don't want to be the one on 'standby'. I'm tired of that...and I hope you jolly well know it. Spare me your excuses la eh. I'm tired of the way you manoeuvre your way out...all the time. And I can be stupid enough to give you space to do so.
I'm so contradicting la eh because I'm like that.
End of story seh about this matter. Moving on.......
I can't wait for Melbourne's final briefing and room allocation *stares at Seri* What if I said really comes true!?!?! =X HEHE. I'm like damn excited to whack and slash la. WAHAHAHAS. And shop..and eat!! IM GOING TO BUY SO MANY APPLES WHEN WE GET THERE!! HEE! (= I need to make a shopping list too! My own packing list...and what I need to bring along to Australia for Mummy asap as well. AHHH. Time to get organised. HAHA. Okie, will settle that tomorrow.
OH man..Did not realise the time. EH. 1:56am. Why I not tired eh.
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