Wednesday, May 31, 2006
Miss me? Haha.
AND AYE IT'S RAINING!! =D Shiok. Night time rain is the best everrrr!
Well been ages aye but hee I'm back. Tired but still alive and kickin'! Wheeeeeeee.
=)
And signs of me falling sick is showing like crazy. Running nose, headache, blocked ears. EVERYTHING. Can't I just stay well for awhile! JUST AWHILE?! My immune system, MY GAWD. Arghs.
ANYWAYS! Guess what! Saturday was out with ChengYan around noon time (YES I CANCELLED WORK =X) then we were at Cine and Carrie Chong was there dressed up like a guy lar and was giving a pair preview tix to 'She's the Man', 29th May, to whoever came with the password and WHEEEE both of us got 1 pair each! ChengYan brought Jas while I asked Sonia to accompany me HAHA. Then after that met Girlfriend (= (= Chengyan left for her Aunt's place. Wheee. Went to pierce ear, makan dinner and headed down to Esplanade to just 'hang out'. Kays. The band playing there was GOOD. We were there for almost what, 3-4 hours? They were playing all the nice songs lar..And the person singing was good too (= Great company great music, everything. Well done. Must go there every weekend eh check out the performance they have. Hee. (= Thankiew Yanyan and Girlfriend for being there for meeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Sunday ar...Supposed to go church but ermmms u know la eh! =X Met Sonia at Causeway Point in the aftnn. CALL ME CRAZY but hey, go jer lar. With her Mother Brother Sister Bro-in-law and nieces. OH GOSH. Walked walked walked. Her niece just want to be how cute lar!! Then we left for movieeee. Yeaps. The Da Vinci Code. Nothing great. Read the book. HAA =X
The whole entire week I lied I had no school lar! Naughty kan!?
Monday. Hoho. NP for me to meet ChengYan. Lunched and studied with her..Did my stupid numbers subject. EEKS. Then headed down to town bout 5. Hehs. SHE'S THE MAN IS GOOD LAR PLS! Go watch go watch! Need to emphasise man. DONT WATCH MEANS URE CRAZY LAR! Heh! (=
Tuesday. Slept in till damn late...Then went down for driving. 2 slots. Drive until happy ar. Damn tired. 2:40pm and 4:40pm slot. Oh gosh I'm done with stage 1 finally!!!! =) Then Dad picked me up and headed to worrrkkk. TIRED!
Wednesday. Slept in like hell again. Laze around like crazy and just slept somemore till 5pm decided to get my butt up to go shower, makan and headed down for training which was apparently damn good (= Well done girls. Haha. I love it lar. Intensity was great, coach was happy and we were happy too. Everyone super on form. I just wanted to keep running. HEE. Love it love it. (= Then dinner-ed with the Deb Sher Sonia Aishah Joey Meiwei and Yanzi at Mac-kers aft that. Just shared something with the one sitting opposite me. And now I'm eating again, at 11:31pm! Goodness.
TIRED, so tired. No school tomorrow, for me that is =D Heading for driving at 10:30am! So fun then I must go get my PP poster done. Prolly go for my FYP meeting and training...Then I'd just head back home. Friday would just be driving and home sweet home..
SATURDAY! Pls go with us! We're gonna go club! Response so far so good. All must go k! =) Well done. I love it.
It's so true when I say 'when one situation picks up, the other falls'. I can never get the best of both worlds can I? Sad you know =( But I love floorball... But the other one is dear to me as well. OH WELL, I'll just go with the flow.
I've jeopardized my grades like crazy this week. No more man. Pls stop me whenever I want to skip k! Must work hard already. HAIS!
I want to go off and sleep.........I've been sleeping so so much. Guess I gave myself an extra week of hols to slp eh =X What the hell. K lar so late already.... See u all, soon (=
Remember us,
and all we used to be.
11:56 PM
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Saturday, May 20, 2006
Out.
i'm tired.
will be retiring from here.
for awhile.
will be back, eventually, one fine day or whatever words you all wanna use la eh. tata.
find me over at the other side.
to whoever who may know where that is.
12:32 PM
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Thursday, May 18, 2006
And I'm thankful you're still here,
thankful indeed.
Trust, gee. Fuck it. Don't want to say much.
All I was to you was someone you called when you're bored, and I don't exist anymore now that you have her, and you fucking want to give me attitude too?
Why should I care about anyone else when I know that I have people who will be there, no matter what. Eesh.
Am so full of resentment now.
I just want to sleep everything away because I'm so so so so tired. =(
Mentally drained,
physically worn-out.
Good night.
the resentment lingers;
level of trust hits rock bottom
10:48 PM
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Wednesday, May 17, 2006
Continue continue!
And I'm depressed with a capital 'D'. Doesn't help that training had to go that way, found myself with a D for my first UT for IT Security and 3 of my new fishes died k =( Yati said prolly the temperature of the water. Sighs, its near the window lar so next time must draw the curtains when I go out. So how can I not feel depressed you tell me? SIGHS!!
_____
Some pics of what happened today (=
Me staring at the pretty flowers (=
Me and Jar in the fitting room HOHO! =X
Jill's flowers. (= Wrapped so nicely! AND SO PRETTY LAR!!
Us with the thing that takes our breath away!
The resentment still stays and the level of trust has hit rock bottom.
I don't know what to say neither do I know what to do anymore. Wished all these never happened. I hate being so fake knowing that I hate this so much yet I act as if nothing happened. Doesn't my actions show well enough what the hell I'm feeling? Body language in other words. Sorry, but I don't like this at all, not one bit. That made me leave early today and I still am hating it, SO SO MUCH! I did not want to stay on if not I'd have just flared up. Wonder why I'm taking it so badly lar. Sighs.
I'm tired lar. Woke up so early today for driving then headed down to Suntec for a damn redundant wait. I'm not happy lar then headed home along with Yati and Jar over with me to take my stuff for training. (=
The whole troop had the same practical session timing today as me lar. Emily, Rafidah, Liying and me. All my SSDC kakis. Haha. My eye caught Liying's name on the screen then realised maybe the rest are here so yeah I actually waited and saw all 3 names. HAHA. I had company! Drove passed Em so many times even out on the road lar!! FUN! I love driving kays!! Wheeeee. But manual leceh like hell. Don't like ar... Oh well, slowly, practice makes perfect. Hoho...And hees I got back the same instructor again (= HAPPY. Thank you Lord (= HEE. I'm loving it so much lalalala!
Alright, am going to head to bed now. Damn tired. Good night.
10:46 PM
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Tuesday, May 16, 2006
Sometimes I wish you could just tell me whatever's on your mind. This guessing game, k, it's my fault for wanting to interfere but don't you think by just telling me all would be so much better? I won't be paranoid and the world will be a better place. Sighs. And I don't know why the hell I'm still feeling this way when I'm not supposed to. Breathe in and out 5 times Nicky. Turn around and smile. Everything will be okay, I'm sure. Sighs.
Just a thought:
Aren't good friends supposed to respect one another's decision regardless of what they choose and where their happiness really lies? No?
Well just a thought people please do not think too deep into it.
Signing out lar. Tata.
1:40 PM
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Friday, May 12, 2006
Ahhh. Guess whatt..Instead of ending work at 12 as schdeuled, I extended to 2am today! OH WOW! and 2 hours is double pay because after midnight!!! (= 20 bucks baby! And another 50 bucks tomorrow. *prances around* But it was so damn fucking tiring the last 2 hours because I was alone doing server. Goodness. The crowd just kept coming in! I had to clear tables after tables and had to leave some alone because I had to keep sending food also. MAN! Tired and my feet hurt so bad but its okay! Haha. All for the money. Yeaps.
And the taxi system over at the airport for people who end work late is so funny lar. Like all the taxi uncles with walkie talkies saying where people stay and arranging us in cabs. Kay it doesn't sound funny here but eh, the scene was just hilarious lar. And the taxi Uncle is a scary driver I swear. He went all the way up to 160km/h k. What the fuck. I know road empty lar but I don't want to die young tau!
Some big surprise visit by Miss Chia today to RP. Called me in the middle of lesson to ask me go makan. Aper nieee. Found her, found her eh, what a word to use. K found her after UT and yay she and Joreen took 858 with me (= And accompanied me all the way till I started work. Wheeee.
That's it, there's no school later at 8:30am! Instead there's work at 6pm! Hoho. Double pay, double pay!
And man, it's 3:34am! My Mum's going to wake up 1 hour later for work and I reckon I might just head to bed soon after I'm done with this entry. Will just get RJ done tomorrow before I head to work since it closes at 11:59pm on 12th May. HOHO.
Dah la, that's all I have to say.
But before I go, was looking through the mess on my desktop and found this expired entry that I never did post because that was something wrong with blogger! Here it is.
Good night my loves! (=
9th May 2006
Hoho, I've never sat at this location near my place before. It's the area near the 'design and build' flats where there are nice little huts looking thingy where you can just sit around, reflect or have a chat if you're with someone.
The music is just blasting from my laptop as I sit here with the nice breeze blowing at my face. Hoho.
And Seri, it's nice sitting here alone and munching on my chocolate! HEE! =D
Ended work SUPER early today because the place was like ghost town and my supervisor wanted to cut cost and asked me to leave early. Growls. Nevermind la eh at least I can get my work done quick, go home and sleep!
I'm finally done with the 3 weekly logs and polished up the project specifications. Done with RJ too. Question today is, 'Everyone is special. Why are you special?' APER NIEE!! But hee, I came up with a rather stupid answer la ehhh. Acceptable I hope. Silly but acceptable la I suppose. Stupidnyer...
Classmate was down with a bad case of food poisoning for awhile. Think you're feeling better eh? (= Take care ar although I see you like 5 times a week.. Don't know why I must blog about it all but just feel like it. Hoho! Be honoured k to have me speaking about you on my blog. Limited tau the people I talk about here. HOHO!
Driving at 8:35am tomorrow, faints. Then meeting Cher for awhile and heading off to school for FYP and SLA Fiesta thingy. FLOORBALL!! WOOHOOOO! Haha. Went around the year 1 classes today lar. Madness. But nevermind la eh, fun! Never done it before. Then got training after that. FULL DAY AHEAD. Same goes for Thursday, except that training will be replaced by work and driving will be replaced by school. Hoho.
K lar, I should head home now. Wait my Mother wonder why I take an hour and a half to reach home when the place is like 15 minutes away from home =X
GOOD DAY PEOPLE!
3:44 AM
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Thursday, May 11, 2006
..and so it was nice,
just us seniors at one table at mac.
with our new addition and MVP nominee, miss ng meiwei.
and our missing members liz aishah and jas. hoho. who was at the other table. u guys were not forgotten. dont love us anymore ar? =( sit so far.
miss that so much. more pls!
laughing, just talking crap, bitching. oh man.
the feeling is just too great to be expressed in words!
gawd, getting emo.
i love driving. thats all.
and i thank you Lord for everything that has been happening be it good or bad. i thank you Lord for opening up my eyes to everything and letting me know that with your strength, everything is possible because your strength is the greatest of all and you'd be the only one i could ever rely on.
i commit RP adroits in your hands...
sighs.
and i have nothing to be sorry abt cos i guess my reason for missing training is pretty objective. dont see why i have to write that apology letter or even have a word 'sorry' in it. arghs. i'll just hand in what i have.
and this is what it is:
I did not attend training on 9th April 2006 because from what I know, it was supposed to be on 8th April 2006. Apparently due to last minute changes on 6th April 2006 for whatever reason, I was unable to attend training as my work schdeule was already released on 4th April 2006 and it would make me irresponsible if I cancelled my Tuesday schdeule when I already did say I could work on 9th April 2006.
Thank you for your kind attention.
at least i said thank you!
AND I STILL DONT LIKE PANG HUI MIN!!! HMPH!
IT'S NOT FUNNY!!!!
good night.
12:05 AM
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Friday, May 05, 2006
So I'm up at 12:10am. Came back about 45 minutes back from Jill's granddad's wake and RJ session at Toa Payoh's Mac. Was so sleepy but am not anymore lar. Sheesh. Downed longans! Yums. (= And shaker fries' yummy too! Kk.
Went for my 2nd driving lesson today and really THANK YOU LORD for the instructor *heart smiling* He was so damn patient lar. Still can talk story, ask me about powerpoint presentations when I told him I was taking IT in RP. Haha, damn funny. I think we talked more about other stuff than he teaching me stuff while I was driving around the circuit lar! AND THE ENGINE DOESN'T STALL ANYMORE! Hoho, less than before k. Maybe just twice? =X HEES! He said I'm more confident and I'm much better at turning, stopping before the white line and everything else. Hoho. (= See la, must relax tau if not I'll die sia in the car, STRESS! Thank you thank you LORD! This instructor's teaching made the other instructor look so damn bad I'm serious. Next lesson, Saturday. Must pray as I'm walking to the car that everything will go smoothly. Heard that I might be able to go out onto the road (= Hoho!
For the 100th time, or maybe more than that, I hereby ask the floorball people of Singapore to stop assuming! Hope you all know what I mean la eh! Man, nothing better to do tau!
To school or sleep in tomorrow? Maybe even stay home to revise for the whole lot of test coming up? FYP weekly logs? AHH! Then head down to school for 3on3. Sighs. Everyone's noticing my heavy eyebags. It's just adding on lar and freaking ugly. And it doesn't help that my hair is this colour now. Makes my face look more dull. Sighs... Sleep, sleeppp. Come to me!
Tomorrow, home or school.
Saturday, driving and more sleep after that.
Sunday. Man, training at like 5am! K la kidding. 9am =( Bukit Timah larrrrrrrrrrrrr, IM FINE WITH TAMPINES SPORTS HALL U KNOW!!! Then work the whole aftnn and night. Goodnesssss.
Guess what, I blew my whole pay on driving. Pray that money will drop from the sky now la ehhh. Have yet to get my monthly allowance! There's still hope! I'll just work more this month!
I talk too much. And I'd update lesser here k... So yeah...
Take care people of the world.
-Nicky signing out!
12:59 AM
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Tuesday, May 02, 2006
edit.
To the girl who lives across the road,
really thank you for today (=
It's the first time in a long time that I was able to let out genuine laughters and I feel so damn good about it.
More to come I hope.. Hee.
Has anyone ever told you you're great company? (=
Take care.
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Some mad escapade around Tampines today. So yes I skipped school today. Dad din want to let me skip 'cos I was sick lar and he din believe. So this is what I did. Both parents working morning kan, so I woke up at hohoho 8:15am, msged Sharain and yeap we met at 9:50am at our house bus stop. HEES. First time meeting her alright and it was good (= Macs breakfast.
Sonia came, we accompanied her to M1 then to Nokia care centre. Then Sonia left for work. Headed to TM where we went arcade. AHHHH that girl rocks lar at Time Crisis!! GROWLS! I must go play and challenge her next time. Make me malu jer tau! We din know what movie to watch. Whatever I wanted only had a slot at 6:30pm lar -.- So we settled for.......The Wild. HAHAHA. Kept laughing lar cannot take it! K la then we headed towards Street 21 to get her stuffies. Hung around for awhile cos we had to wait. Looked at fishies and just sat there to smoke, talked. (= Good that she talks a lot huh. Helps me open up also. Hees. So comfortable talking to you lar and it's not always like that during first meetings k so consider yourself lucky.
The whole time was just laughing and laughing lar.. With her funny stories. Oh man, Converse shoes. (= Hoho! She went to meet her friend after at town while I went to meet Sonia at her workplace to pass her her phone after I collected it for her. Ate during her break with her and headed home and I feel better! Don't feel sick nemore. Just got the running nose still. Hur. But all's good. (=
Yeap I had fun. See, don't need medicine okay. Indeed, Laughter's the best medicine. (=
K lar, that's done.
Pore pack thingy's on my nose. Slowly drying up now. OUT COMES THE BLACK HEADS! Hoho.
Conclusion: Being easily contented is good enough and I want that in me too can? HUR.
FYP tomorrow and off to get my hair done. WHEEEE (= FINALLY KAYS managed to get an appointment after how long.
I talk too much. BYE.
8:23 PM
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Monday, May 01, 2006
10 months later.
306 days.
I'm officially s i c k. =(
Argh, don't know how I'm going to handle class tomorrow if my parents don't let me skip lar. Sighs. It's really damn pain this throat ears and nose. HUR. My ears are going to be blocked soon I swear! Arghhs. Don't complain already la eh. More water for Nicky!
Just woke up from a quick nap. Can't sleep in peace because the blardie weather is so hot and the fan doesn't help. And it doesn't help that I'm sick because I can't switch on the air-con! It'll just dry my whole nasal passage. And and I keep having weird dreams lar. Like that confirm gurantee 100% chop I'm falling sick like hell! Sighs. =( The most I'll just go to class sulking. Thank God not same team as Classmate eh. K well done.
And girl, faster date me out. Hoho. Yes just live opposite the road lar...What's taking you so long. Hees. K la shhhh.
I'm tired. And hungry.
Going now, tata...
3:38 PM
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