Came home an hour later than expected. What, 11:30pm?
On impulse I alighted at a bus stop in Pasir Ris, walked and walked all the way to Pasir Ris beach. 3 sticks at one go. First stick got me trembling and it was just crazy. And all that made it better was saying that little prayer in my heart, filling that empty space.
All that was around me was God's works...
The calming waves hitting the shore...The sea breeze.
The stars appeared slowly as the clouds cleared.
My heart was filled with His love and it was all I needed at that point of time.
I did not know who to turn to and remembering what Jill and Sonia said to me, I turned to Him and yes, He made everything alright.
The tranquility was beyond words.
Sighs Nicky, you're so foolish.
Stayed there awhile, took a deep breath and finally headed home. Now here I am.
I shall not say anything more,
this is all I have to say:
If you call me today
I'll say that I'm fine
But I bet you can tell by the tone of my voice
It's just a lie
You knew what you had
You still walked away leaving me in this mess
My love for you is deep and meaningless
You, you knew what you were doing to me
And I, I guess I was too blind to see
Well you hit where it hurt and you fooled me so bad
But I'd do it again to relive what we had.
Rod Stewart's These Foolish Things is playing now. So glad I found the song. Been looking for it for a long long time! It shall be on my repeat list for awhile.
Put the emo stuff aside...Went to watch 'Take The Lead' with Classmate today. It was okay la har. I was half asleep and we were both like sleeping before the movie started. Eesh. What do you think leh? Classmate said 'Mad Hot Ballroom' nicer. I think 'Take The Lead' is damn hot! Heh heh. I like. HOTT. Let's go club lar Ghui!! Cannot take it!
FYP tomorrow. HUR. Snakes sucks lar. Blahs.
Alright I'm tired. Good night.
I'm already trying my best, can't you tell?
I'm Nic, I'm softhearted, don't you know?
Well, I want to give up trying to act strong!
I want to give up trying to give you what you want!
I want to give this up..... So badly...
No Nic, breathe in...and out 5 times, turn around and smile.